You’re a bad habit but I’ll keep you anyway/ You’re good at the start but I know where this leads/ To me wishing time was malleable/ For him to not be hurt/ I’ve got a bad habit that I exercise everyday

One more final in 2.5 hours! Then sleep

I need a job, although I saved a lot of money when I moved down here, I’m uncomfortable spending any of it until I have an income.  I want to go shopping…

lust list:

turquoise jewerly

pencil skirts

nude lipstick

soft pink lipstick

cetaphil

skin milk

ultimate lust——Mark Jacobs blue leather petal to the metal purse. I want you most of all.

Some days, like today, I walk around thinking it is best that no one really knows me because I am meant to do something greater and they will be just a distraction.

9/30/11

I posted my goals for summer and here is how they turned out:

Working full time 40+ hours - DONE made a lot of mullah

NO Summer school for the first time in 2 summers! - DONE did absolutely no studying…bit me in the butt though when school started.

Save up for San Diego living in September.- Hell yeah saved 5 grand

Maybe go on a mini road trip to a California coastal city.- YUP! Did it with my dance team.

Do something adventurous with a new face.-Maybe not a good idea stupid boy.

Build a new wardrobe filled with lasting pieces. -Bought a pair of white chucks and leather chucks that’s about it.

Eventually buy a computer.- I bought a computer an ipad and a 32” moniter. I went overboard on this.

THIS FALL:
I want to make new friends.

Get a new job.

Try not to spend too much

Get at least a 2 A’s and one B in all my classes. I’m thinking about grad school. 

I have a chip on my shoulder. He put a wobble in my stride. He is now off living a lie with his girlfriend and I leave without a fight. I go on my way hurt, with no one really knowing the pain he has caused. He goes back to her with a new found sense of respect and love, only due to the fact that he knows he has done the unthinkable. He goes back to her doing the most to make her unaware of his cheating habits. I slowly fade from his sight. Say goodbye and no we can never be friends after this night. 

Second place never hurt so bad. 

Second place to a girl who never even knows there was competition makes you feel lower than low. 

Nothing makes what we did justifiable.

But I do the only thing I know how to do and that is to keep my head up and keep the ones around me closer, and those who come into my life with a greater wall to break down.